Friday, May 28, 2010


A little of pressure is the best way to achieve something that is worthwhile for there are once in the lifetime that we will meet a person who will accept us for what we are. Ideally I was about to go to my school when I witnessed such an incident in the road where the old man was hit and run by a car. No one helped him, except for the other private vehicle which is a white mazda. A young man, like of my age 19 I guess, was so deliberately helped the old man and shout for help. I was astonished by what he acts because I really seldom found such nice as him. Whose so kind, people just stared at him in an awe. Other people doesn't want to helped they just look and ignored them.

How I wish I could find someone who will really accept me for who I am and what I really am not only that who will really love for who I am and not for what I am.

Thursday, May 27, 2010


What am I gonna do now? He was really active in school, should I be proud of it or not? Of course I will he was totally responsible and well very competitive. But with those work that he got? He has no time to join with his friends including me. I was so happy that he had a position to be a president in his club, he could be a good example to everyone :) but somehow miss the way we used to do.

I just missed him, the things that we do and the things that we usually make but somehow with all that things I'm still proud of him ;)

so cold

Summer is over I think and to welcome the month of June, heavy rain pours in the end of the week of May, I guess. Well it speaks all about the weather here, in Bacolod City. Together with the season ablaze the feeling of coldness. Coldness that runs down in my spine. Something's pinching me inside. I can't force myself to stop thinking about you because if I do? What then? It's me who'll gonna suffer. They are right, I come to think of it that there were instances that reality must be faced here not of the made up of illusions inside my head. If I'm gonna just believe of what the other people say well, it will just gonna make things complicated. It turned out that I have to see just to believe somethings really going on.

Living the day with a worn out face? Huh? It feels like hey what the hell happen to you? That was something so strange to handle about being so haggard. It's a no no for me. One way to be noticed again is to smile with all of my heart. Knowing that the others could notice if you are so down or not.

(sigh) but actually I didn't mean to be so sad it just like maybe looking for something so inevitable... ;)

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

What is like to be love

What can the love in my soul be compared to another wonderful soul which is so far and yet so close of my self?
What can this symbiosis between two souls can be?
What can love be when you feel you cannot sleep at night, that every drop of dew becomes a crystal in your heart, when every breeze of wind has magical meanings?
What can love be when you feel that you want nothing more in this world that to be with the soul you love?
But what can love be in other transcendental realities? What about our souls?
Are our souls a waterfall, a true Niagara or a smile, a flirt of an angel? Are our souls a mere mood of a fairy or a lightening in a summer rain?
Our souls could be all of this and much more. But what really happens in that transcendental reality when we feel we are truly in love, that we love so much that it hurts? That the air in the room is unbreathable, that the sentimental, spiritual or physical distances kill us? What happens when dawn find us sadder than ever, looking for an excuse or an argument for the person we love so much, our Great Love? What are all these? What are the looks lost in the desert horizons of unfulfilled or those in the eyes that deeply loose each other in the others inside the souls?

Which soul can be with me? The truth that seeks happiness within unanswered prayers that somehow truly ignites my senses.

What is like to be? How? And why such things can't explain well the extravagant of this unique feeling?


whole yet numb

The whole summer was a thrill in my spine. Not been expecting to happen this much with my life. Living me into paralyzed and can't continue to live out the rest.